Never having time

I once said on my Facebook status:

There will always be laundry that needs to be done, errands that need to be completed, but consistently putting yourself last will only result in forever trying to play catch up with yourself. Take care of yourself, you deserve it :)


This particular status got something like 16 likes from my little network of friends. I read it over once in a while to remind myself to slow down. Because in theory, it sounds so great. Love yourself. But let's be realistic, how much of what you do in a day is really for you?


I'm not sure if you guys know about this, but at the moment I'm staying with my in-laws until my husband and I get back on our feet. It sounds great for a number of reasons. In the past two weeks I've received the following comments:

• You're living rent free
• At least you have a roof over your head
• At least you're not homeless
• Wow you must be saving a ton of money

Notice how a lot of those comments are kind of sneaky mean. They're not really positive. Especially the ones that start with the words "at least..." I think people kind of tell you (or tell themselves) things like that to try to "remain humble."

Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful someone is willing to help us out right now. I'm grateful someone has the resources to assist us in this difficult transition period. However, I don't think grateful should equate happy or content. This is exactly what is should be: difficult.

I mean let's be realistic, if you're either happy or content with living with your in-laws because you don't have any options you are either used to it or you're lying.

Anyways, there's been tremendous pressure on me (not sure if it is real or perceived) to find a job. ASAP. Given this economy I don't think it's unfair or unusual for me to have a "deer-in-headlights" look on my face. The whole situation feels rather overwhelming. In fact, it's kind of gotten out of hand.

Which brings me to today. I'm sitting here in Barnes & Noble working on my design resume, pulling up job applications to gyms, and more or less bugging out about how I still haven't heard anything. Really, I'm supposed to be here to complete resumes and cover letters.

I left my in-laws' house because there's two ten year olds there that (while I love them) can be quite... loud. Plus I'm paranoid and think she's judging me. But that's just my paranoia speaking I think.

Anyways, here I am. Staring at the things I have to do and all I could think of was getting it done until I saw my tab open with my blogger loaded. It made me sad to realize I've been ignoring the one thing the de-stresses me. Journaling!

So, after you've read my pathetic post about stress (yes I know there are people out there that like have no clean water -- way more stressful situation), this is a friendly reminder that you need to take some time in your day, and do something for yourself.

Doing your laundry doesn't count. Shopping for food doesn't count.

When was the last time you meditated?
When was the last time you just sat down and did absolutely nothing?

Treat yourself! You deserve it. And trust me, you'll feel 100x's better, even if you didn't feel like crap before.